c-ta and sq pc catch all

[mearry]

haha theyre in jail

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[mearry]

I wanted to stay with him forever. Without him I felt empty.

[ he might as well accept it. he’s an empty existence on his own. ]

I have kinda have feelings like that for another person. But I don’t know if it’s because they look like A-ya or because I…like like them.

i cant believe im actually on the char for who knows this canonly and has a skit about it

[5_1_1]

Yeah, that's totally love. [ Without the pop it normally has but she has to say it anyway. ]

Mm, that sounds pretty hard. I think...you should just like or love whoever you want and not think too hard about it. [ ! ] And if you really like them both, maybe you could like...just be a poly? Like one big relationship together, I mean.

CLOSES MY EYES

[mearry]

[ he would go and say that he won’t EVER see a-ya or suga again because one is already dead and so will he but…

he’ll make believe it’s possible. a poly relationship.

wait. ]

How does that work? More than two people in the same relationship?

[5_1_1]

Mm basically like...you share? You all date each other and three is greater than two. Or however big you want to like, make it. [ She pauses to sniffle and try to put more bounce in her voice. ]

It's important for everyone to be okay with it though or it gets really messy and just, not good?

[mearry]

O-oh…

[ he wonders, if a-ya were around, what he would say. would he like the idea? would he hate to share the spot with someone else? what about suga?

c-ta can’t help but feel like maybe he’d be the problem. but he’s been feeling a lot of that this whole day. ]

Three… sounds good enough, actually. But I… [ he also sniffles. this is so bittersweet. ] I don’t really know how to… tell them. That I love them.

[ because telling suga that he Likes him is one thing. love? whole different beast ]

[5_1_1]

I think you can just like... tell them you like them first? And once you've done that you can say I reaaaaaaaaaaaally like you and like you know, just keep increasing it? Until you feel okay with saying love.

[ She's quiet for a bit, shifting in her cell, her jewelry breaking the silence. ]

But I would just... go for it if you feel that way. That's what I would do. You never know when....anything could happen, right? [ Ah, she might be crying again. ]

[mearry]

…

[ hearing her cry makes him want to cry. he didn’t think he still had tears left after everything, but… this day has been full of ugly surprises. ]

I want…

[ he breathes in shakily. ]

I want to tell Suga. That I love him. But if I die… then he’ll be more hurt. So maybe I should tell him that I hate him instead? That way he’ll be happy when I’m gone.

[5_1_1]

Don't tell him that you hate him. Lies like that are... [ She hiccups a little, residual from when she was crying so hard she couldn't catch her breath. ]

This place isn't like where I was before. Back home, it was similar but I think it was like...a time loop? And each time was different, but each time people died and we voted people off. This isn't like that but...

You should make the most of what you have, even if it's selfish. There might not be a next time and sometimes you just...need to do things for you. That's how...I live. Because I was never supposed to exist at all.

[mearry]

…I’m glad you exist, SQ. For real.

[ he says it softly, like he means it. and he does. despite everything, he does care for a lot of people in the group.

which is why it hurts to have burned so many bridges down. but there’s not much he can do about it now. ]

It’d be super boring if I were alone in this place. I hate… I hate feeling lonely, you know? It’s such a shitty feeling.

[5_1_1]

[ Another hiccup. ]

Thanks. I don't like being alone either, so I'm glad we...can talk to each other like this. [ Hard to say anything about this situation is good but. ]

I don't really like, get all that you did but...you felt like you needed to do it, right? I get that.