I think you can just like... tell them you like them first? And once you've done that you can say I reaaaaaaaaaaaally like you and like you know, just keep increasing it? Until you feel okay with saying love.
[ She's quiet for a bit, shifting in her cell, her jewelry breaking the silence. ]
But I would just... go for it if you feel that way. That's what I would do. You never know when....anything could happen, right? [ Ah, she might be crying again. ]
[ hearing her cry makes him want to cry. he didn’t think he still had tears left after everything, but… this day has been full of ugly surprises. ]
I want…
[ he breathes in shakily. ]
I want to tell Suga. That I love him. But if I die… then he’ll be more hurt. So maybe I should tell him that I hate him instead? That way he’ll be happy when I’m gone.
Don't tell him that you hate him. Lies like that are... [ She hiccups a little, residual from when she was crying so hard she couldn't catch her breath. ]
This place isn't like where I was before. Back home, it was similar but I think it was like...a time loop? And each time was different, but each time people died and we voted people off. This isn't like that but...
You should make the most of what you have, even if it's selfish. There might not be a next time and sometimes you just...need to do things for you. That's how...I live. Because I was never supposed to exist at all.
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[ he wonders, if a-ya were around, what he would say. would he like the idea? would he hate to share the spot with someone else? what about suga?
c-ta can’t help but feel like maybe he’d be the problem. but he’s been feeling a lot of that this whole day. ]
Three… sounds good enough, actually. But I… [ he also sniffles. this is so bittersweet. ] I don’t really know how to… tell them. That I love them.
[ because telling suga that he Likes him is one thing. love? whole different beast ]
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[ She's quiet for a bit, shifting in her cell, her jewelry breaking the silence. ]
But I would just... go for it if you feel that way. That's what I would do. You never know when....anything could happen, right? [ Ah, she might be crying again. ]
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[ hearing her cry makes him want to cry. he didn’t think he still had tears left after everything, but… this day has been full of ugly surprises. ]
I want…
[ he breathes in shakily. ]
I want to tell Suga. That I love him. But if I die… then he’ll be more hurt. So maybe I should tell him that I hate him instead? That way he’ll be happy when I’m gone.
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This place isn't like where I was before. Back home, it was similar but I think it was like...a time loop? And each time was different, but each time people died and we voted people off. This isn't like that but...
You should make the most of what you have, even if it's selfish. There might not be a next time and sometimes you just...need to do things for you. That's how...I live. Because I was never supposed to exist at all.
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[ he says it softly, like he means it. and he does. despite everything, he does care for a lot of people in the group.
which is why it hurts to have burned so many bridges down. but there’s not much he can do about it now. ]
It’d be super boring if I were alone in this place. I hate… I hate feeling lonely, you know? It’s such a shitty feeling.
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Thanks. I don't like being alone either, so I'm glad we...can talk to each other like this. [ Hard to say anything about this situation is good but. ]
I don't really like, get all that you did but...you felt like you needed to do it, right? I get that.